Thursday, August 26, 2010

open me up and you will see, im a gallery of broken hearts

lovethissoososchool started. and despite all the realness school brings, im excited. this semester im working with mothers and children (OB and PEDS!) and i absolutely adore it. this summer felt strange and freeing all at the same time. being able to go where ever, when ever i wanted made it extremely painful to come back down to the real world. regardless, i think there’s a comfort that comes with having a set schedule, waking up at a normal hour, eating real food…i mean, sprinkles and sonic arent exactly healthy… and ive come back rejuvenated. trying to put these feelings into words is very difficult, but i feel that im coming back to school as me. ive finally found the person ive been looking for this past year (can you believe it’s been a year?) and all along i was looking for myself. i had been lost in a whirlwind of heart ache and the frightening reality that i was alone. i finally feel comfortable in my skin, i can look myself in the eyes and smile at the person looking back at me. i guess it’s a lot more than the set schedules that has brought comfort back into my life. it’s the sense of knowing who i am, and loving it.

i nearly finished my wall project this summer.. i guess ill just have to go antique paroozing to fill in the gaps..  picture below. picture above is from here.IMG_2235

16 comments:

Unknown said...

I adore this. And you. And your wall.

Auntie Em said...

I love it! Good luck with school! I wish you were on rotation up here in January I could use a good L&D and mama baby nurse come then. Love you and study hard!

nadia shea said...

you are amazing and I look up to you. That wall is gorgeous! Consider this post inspiring.

Shay said...

Im happy for you:-)

mindy said...

you are amazing cami. i look up to you too!
your wall ROCKS. come do my plate wall??

as far as a set schedule and stuff...working all day mon-fri. i'd rather have sprinkles and sonic and sleep in everyday!!! :)

girls night when you aren't busy? must be a weekend cuz i go to bed at 9 pm sharp week nights haha

Unknown said...

it looks gorgeous, well done.


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Adria said...

Oh Camilucious! I just L-O-V-E you so much. I too can see the difference in you from last year to this year. I am so thankful for our friendship:) xoxo

Mandy said...

So so proud of you. I feel like we are friends already. Please tell me when you are coming to Utah so we can play?

And your wall is gorgeous! I need some help with mine. Did you thrift it? Or are there actually some of those frames I can purchase?

sydnee said...

can you come decorate my house?! haha, but really you have talent in so many ways. You are an amazing woman and i would love to get to know you even better!

angela hardison said...

don't know you too well, but i'm gonna agree with everyone else that you are amazing. loved this post, and i love that wall, a lot.

Corine said...

I am in LOVE with your wall. I mean your whole blog. I mean you.
corinebell@gmail.com
Thank you thank you!

casey keele said...

Our clock!

Nathan Williams said...

quite the little nook!

looks like an inspiring spot

JMay said...

Love the pic, such a great daily reminder :-)

Kelsey said...

#2? lacrosse number? I knew we were friends.

Natalie said...

Oh my goodness...I love that wall!