my soul has often found relief.

institute never fails to lift me. being at clinical on sundays has drained me in all aspects of the word. last night we talked about how it’s easier to do what’s right when it’s beneficial to ourselves. my mind wandered (as usual) and these were my inner thoughts (of course related to school). so often we cram for things, finials, tests, presentations, papers. putting things off until the last possible second was something i thought was a gift of mine. i got strait A’s by cramming in college. but now looking back to those times, how much information was really retained? let me walk you through this…oh test in 2 days, cram, stress, zero patients for anyone i loved, memorize like a flipping wizard, take test, dump all information. how much of that biology would truly be beneficial to me now in nursing school. TONS. i’ve smartened up since then. i study often, i internalize the information, i connect the dots, yeah there’s still some cramming but that’s my safety net. these are peoples lives we’re taking about, not pointing out the lateral condyle of the femur on a fake skeleton. now lets change gears. life, what do i do so often that it sickens me. it’s saturday and there’s a talk to give, or a lesson, or a big decision to make and i cram like no bodies business. how is this any different? life isnt about cramming, or putting things off until the end. i want to be prepared, and the only way to do that is to study, give time and energy continuously. key word. continuously. life happens to all of us, how much more joyful would we be if we were prepared mentally, physically and spiritually. it seems so simple. thought vomit. :)